Ok, so I woke up feeling bummed this morning even though I'm at the beach. I did have a good day yesterday, it was more relaxed than usual. I was speaking to hubby about it and he reckons it's all stress about Christmas and the anticipation
that things will be more difficult than they actually are.
I try to remember what I got for Christmas and where I put it, all seems a blur to me and Im annoyed I didn't bring my new workout gear or my new perfume or diary to the beach. I will
have it when I get home in a week though.
I actually went for a run, the ocean is my sanity I think and can reflect how I feel. There wasn't much sand this morning to run on and it was trying to rain, it was also cold and windy, but wow I felt
so much better and less dead inside when thnking of the coming week.
Hubby is now cooking bacon and eggs for brekky wondering where I put half the groceries last night, I can't remember but Im having a laugh about it instead of getting up and trying
to control the situation and find the bread rolls to go with the bacon and eggs. Surprise surprise, hubby finds them in the cupboard where they usually are......I guess just slowing down and going with it may work for me this week.
So it begins
with this morning's text....today my father and my brother are turning up, Dad's covid test came back negative...(he was at an exposure site so I didn't see him or my brother yesterday). They stay the other end of the street to us so they are not
on top of us, although this does work, we do feel obligated to see them every day even thought they tell us we don't have to. My brother loves going out to eat as do I, so we don't have to cook for them which is a bonus.
My in-laws on the other
hand "don't want to impose" but they stay in our tiny cabin with us for 2 full days (they arrive at 8 in the morning....omgg.) Hubby likes me to be back from my run by the time they get here, but I accidentally on purpose take a wrong turn... I
do love my in-laws and my mother in law is more a friend than anything, they are alot of fun to hang out with but, we have to do everything with them. It does get on my nerves as I feel guilty when I go off alone to run, or go for a walk. I
also go really early to see the sunrise. I shouldn't feel guily about just doing my thing and this year I'm hoping I can say no to a few things such as the icereams in a cone they buy after a very slow walk around the bottom of the bluff on the
rocks when the tide is coming in. (I hate icecream in a cone, so messy and when you watch someone eating them it looks well, just gross. Aside from that icecream does mess with my stomach and teeth. So I'm going to change it up a bit and
say, "well while you are waiting for those, I'll go to the bakery next door and grab a coffee"..... the bar the other side may be a bit obvious!!
I've also said no to the restaurant they insist on taking us to. Hubby actually backed me up with
this and said that the menu there had gone downhill. My in-laws then suggested Vietnamese, my jaw almost hit the floor, luckily I was able to say I can't do that, hubby backed me up with that as well. I should mention that I have an extreme
gut reaction to onion and garlic which is actually life threatening, so not just a tummy ache, it's a twisted bowel. Nevertheless, I've changed it up to another place, the place they like doesn't deal well with my allergies, and I end up almost in hospital
after I've eaten there, so as you can imagine I'm not even contemplating Vietnamese food. I'm thinking maybe the pub hehe!!! Not sure how that will go down. We do love the beer garden but that is stretching it way to far!!
how I do love it when my kids turn up with their partners and stay with us for a few days and I freak out when my Dad and brother arrive with my in-laws. I think it may be because my kids dont live at home anymore and relationships do change. Then
I worry that I am "imposing" on them!!!!
How life goes in circles, I can even remember Mum when she was alive, freaking out about going to see her family interstate and Dad having to pull over so they could have a cup of tea five minutes before
we arrived every time.
So, what will I do today?! Well the run is done, there are the boxing day sales, and I plan to have a look at my favourite shops in the little town before the rest of the holiday makers roll up in their caravans and tents
with 3-4 kids in tow. Following that I'm thinking another walk down the beach when it's acutally sunny (crap its raining now) with hubby to the pub there for a pre family onslaught cocktail. We both may just need it.